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session 1: Chaos

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post session thoughts

Thank you each one for being part of this journey - it already feels so magnificent, inspired, and full of fuego.

We surfaced some key themes during our time together. We looked at chaos through the lenses of:
- trust
- release
- rage/passion/pleasure
- courage
- tension/constraints

We spoke these words as we closed the session:
- gratitude
- ready
- energized
- surrender
- intrigued
- eureka
- hot
- participation
- passion
- held
- inspired
- chaoticized
- tantalized

……y’all…we are SPICY. And Pablo and I are loving it.
Thank you for your contributions, which dropped us straight into this shared experience remarkably fast, with an abundance of heart and authenticity. Scroll to the end of the page for a few highlights we pulled out from session!

We want to reiterate the following lines, which we felt so fully throughout our session.

Here we play with detaching from outcome.
Embracing the goalless goal.
Practicing the practice of showing up.
Devoting ourselves to a shared process.

centering ideas

Unprecedented destruction = unprecedented possibility.

“Journey” as defined by James Baldwin: I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know what I’ll find. I don’t know what I’ll find will do to me.

To be in right relationship with chaos is to be in right relationship with life itself.

Safety and vitality are inversely related. If you seek control, prepare to sacrifice life. If you seek life, prepare to sacrifice control. (Thank you DK, via Tom Morgan)

Chaos compels us to be present, and from a state of presence we can improv.

The creative act is a letting down of the net of human imagination into the ocean of chaos on which we are suspended, and then attempt to bring out of it ideas.

"Find meaning in a moment and the moment becomes eternal. Humanity is quantum. Humanity is jazz.” - The Man Who Fell to Earth

Chaos and the unknown are the vital connective tissue of our lives, just as dark matter is the connective tissue of our universe.

Listen — Feel — Know — Trust — Speak — Release — Listen

post-work

#1: create chaos

Come up with something small you could do that feels chaotic to you, or creates chaos. Throw a deck of cards in the air in your living room. Break out a dance move at the grocery store. Go to a park and scream with a tree. Riff with a street performer. Cancel your day or engage in a spontaneous activity. Start a food fight. Express yourself in a way you don’t normally express yourself. Etc. etc. See what you come up with. Track your resistance. Can you bring yourself to do it? Why or why not? What happens (either way)? How does it feel (either way)?

#2: unanswerable questions

List out all the unanswerable questions you have, from the micro to the meta. Then look at them all lined up. Can you find a common thread? Is there a similar root driver?

#3: innovation & audacity

How are you feeling about letting go of the expectation of an outcome?

What is the most audacious thing you are doing this week? How is chaos informing it?

#4: Bonus

Listen to jazz again. After our conversation, what do you hear now? Notice how you feel. Notice what is new. Notice what you notice.

session recording

Our session 1 recording is here.

You will find the video as well as corresponding text for quick reading. There are clickable links that take you to specific points in the video for ease. If you were not present for any part of the session, please watch the actual video.

session readings

Opening Reading

Chaos is what we've lost touch with. This is why it is given a bad name. It is feared by the dominant archetype of our world, which is Ego, which clenches because its existence is defined in terms of control.

You are an explorer, and you represent our species, and the greatest good you can do is to bring back a new idea, because our world is endangered by the absence of good ideas. Our world is in crisis because of the absence of consciousness.

Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it's a feather bed.

Terence McKenna

Closing Reading

Our vision, like our speech, is meant to be metaphorical, able to see and communicate things beyond any measure. The eye of the heart is shaped for seeing the mysteries of life and love and for sighting new ways for making both...trying to see that way again requires that the heart crack wider open and that brings back the original pain of separation. Many try to avoid that heart breaking pain; yet the eye of the heart can only see through cracks in this world. It used to be better known that the only heart worth having is a broken heart. Only then can others find a way in, only then do people develop insight into their own wound and its healing...

Refusing to see with the inner eyes makes a person blind to the way that life and death pass back and forth in each moment. Each moment we die and come back to life, in the blink of an eye, in the exchanges of blood in the inner chambers of the heart. The heart knows this passage back and forth and the knowledge found between. Seen with that eye, death becomes the way we grow, continually dying to one way of seeing in order to find a greater vision.

Excerpt from Navigating the Coming Chaos by Carolyn Baker




 

content highlights

(((moonshots)))

Moonshot Thinking

Throughout the course of history, we’ve seen that when people set their minds to wildly ambitious goals, the seemingly impossible starts to become possible. Moonshot thinking is about just that — pursuing things that sound undoable, but if done, could redefine humanity. Moonshot Thinking is about more than simply aiming high. It’s about understanding a transforming world, designing for a human-centered, regenerative future, and inspiring others toward action.

A recipe for Moonshots: 

Anyone in any field can take a moonshot! In fact, moonshots do not have to include any science or technology breakthroughs. Moonshots relate to problems that are super important and urgent for humanity (or for yourself) and yet very difficult to pull off. Most Moonshots typically sit at the intersection of these three ingredients:

  1. A huge problem in the world that affects potentially many (starting from you)

  2. A radical, sci-fi sounding solution that may seem impossible today

  3. A breakthrough that gives us a glimmer of hope that the solution could be possible in the next 5-10 years

During these AoCxMoonshots weeks, you will be able to experience the “Moonshot Thinking”, a place where chaos makes it easier to make radical breakthroughs and activate significant potential to benefit you and humanity  — repeatedly. 

The intention is not for you to come up with any particular Moonshot idea or have a Moonshot outcome, but to experience some of the elements of Moonshot thinking to inform the journey of Alchemy of Chaos, innovation, and how it connects and mirrors your inner journey. All the while reflecting on addressing some of the most pressing challenges of our time.

In the pre-work this week (and throughout the rest of the program) we will start sharing the Moonshot thinking practices, frameworks and principles that have been most helpful to Moonshot factories around the world, and encourage you to use them too!

Chaos and Innovation

We can’t predict the future, but we can build for it! 

Innovation is chaotic, and then chaos is required to innovate, for every type of innovation, but specially for difficult and urgent/important innovations, or more radical innovations designed towards a future we want to happen while chaos dances around it, increasing levels of ambition, becoming more sustainable and impacting the world for good such as moonshots innovation. 

But one thing I realized over this time, is that little is talked about the chaotic inner journey of such innovations, of such moonshots, of doing real innovations and creative processes, the ups, the downs, the resistances, the egos, the let go, the birth, the death, the emergencies, the space, the transitions. All the ingredients required to do real innovation and that are not given space, instead of money, ideas, talent, or milestones.

The pandemic has brought home just how fragile the society we've built is—and I don't just mean our public-health systems. I mean our food supply chains, education infrastructure, cybersecurity, job markets, information networks, electoral machinery, and more. The next few decades will likely bring more crises… more chaos, and we aren't equipped. The future will happen even faster. And the old futures we had been anticipating are now in the trash. While the new ones are largely unforeseen chaotic dances. The pandemic has been a major largely-unforeseen event that has shifted the course of history. Disruption is real, and chaos happens all the time. 

And yet innovation still these days remains mainly incremental, trying to linearly predict things from what we know, rather than from what we do not know. What if instead the key to innovation would be not to predict the future, but to hold the uncertainty of the not-knowing? And the chaos that arises in there, within and outthere, knowing that the only thing we know is that an unprobable is probably the most likely to happen.  

And so what we need to shape the future is a mindset to live through chaos. When i land into the beginning of an innovation or moonshot process, chaos for me feels much more like a place to rest, a place to be held, because fundamentally, that is where the new is being birthed.

Chaos and Think Big, 10x not 10%

Chaos gives you a magic power that allows you to rethink things, to start over, to be bold and not trapped by the past. We live in a time between two stories — one that does not serve us anymore, and the other that has yet to be written. A time of  exploration, experimentation, and wondering. A time of uncertainty, but also one of the opportunities where taking bold bets will considerably payout, in particular in areas that prioritize care for people and the planet. To create a new renaissance.

Chaos in particular pushes me first and most importantly  to aim to make things 10x better, not just 10% better. And that is very liberating.

Innovating requires becoming a Chaos Pilot: Taking moonshots is no smooth sailing. It’s an inherently unpredictable and bumpy ride. Rather than shy away from the uncertainty, it’s best to just embrace it. That means challenging yourself to stare into the unknown and instead of being paralyzed by it, seeing it as a source of creative energy and momentum. The sooner you decide to surf the chaos, the easier the chaos gets — and could even be used to your advantage.

Chaos allows multiple collective view points to come and dance together. In fact, the lone inventor having a eureka moment is largely a myth; innovation comes from great diverse teams. Best innovations deliberately assembles teams from a wide range of backgrounds, cultures, and communities, to generate creative chaos and new ideas. Former rocket scientists work alongside concert pianists and puppeteers, and marine biologists mingling with physicists and machine learning experts. Or a mix of humans like the one in this cohort. 

Innovation Journey = Inner Journey

The journey of innovation is not always rosy, Chaos is never going to be predictable because that's exactly what it is. The same way as the innovation process, the moonshots finding. And it is not about thinking it’s all highs and cheers. Not at all. It is edgy, it is dark and light like shadows and brightness, it is death and rebirth, it is hearing all the voices, including the violent, the soothing, the unresting and inspiring ones. It is that that gives us some hints about what chaos stands for and lets the light in between the cracks for innovation to happen.

Embracing chaos will allow you to go from thinking this is totally crazy, to yes, that is going to be a thing.

It pushes you not to value the polished and being done with something journey, but the process of finding and learning something you don’t know.

Embracing chaos will allow you to offset the emotional path of least resistance, with radical candor, intellectual honesty, audicity, being willing to try everything, and yet being very humble and clear that almost everything you try will not work out!




content highlights

(((alchemy of chaos)))

The Truth of Chaos

Chaos, originally, was understood as a formless, nonlinear void. A dimension where all possibility lives, and where all creation - or organized chaos - arises. But the thing about a formless, nonlinear void is that it is absent of certainty, which tends to bring up a lot of fear. Fear of the void. Fear of the nothingness. Fear of the unknown. Fear of the end of the reality or realities we have come to know - in other words, fear of death.

Part of my work as facilitator is to continue to tap into what chaos truly is - not my beliefs about it or projections on it. At first I thought chaos was like that quote from Chögyam Trungpa: “The bad news is you’re falling through the air, nothing to hang onto, no parachute. The good news is there’s no ground.” And then, when I created a deeper dialogue with chaos, what struck me was this understanding of the paradigm of chaos that definitely goes against the grain of my previous understandings. As opposed to a free fall, it felt much more like a place to rest, a place to be held, because fundamentally, everything we know is simply organized chaos. And now, my most current thoughts/musings on it are: What if chaos is perpetual and unrelenting? What if it isn’t about “getting through” the chaos or “alchemizing” the chaos or “handling” the chaos so that we can return to some other state of non-chaos? What if this whole exercise is about cultivating a deep and everlasting relationship to chaos so that we may perpetually become within it? To keep jamming with it, in Primavera’s words?

Not-Knowing and Chaos

Dan Brown says in his book Origin, “despise chaos, create order.” This is our brain’s natural programming. And he also talks about how the exhilaration felt by early explorers was that they were glimpsing something that they had never before seen, and in that moment long held beliefs about their world and what they new would disintegrate in the face of new discovery. And that this was the point. And now more than ever, I feel and see so many people grappling with a new kind of reality: a reality in which no matter how hard we try, we cannot know the answers to these massive questions about how our society is functioning, and breaking, and who we are within that. The gaps in understanding are too large to comfortably allow our minds to fill in those gaps. Assumptions either don’t work, or they create significant dissonance. And I think that the last two years have presented the entire globe with a stark view of the true chaos of the shared reality we inhabit. The dissonance has been so great, and so painful.

Most people I know have a deep longing for peace. And chaos is seen as the opposite of peace, which is perhaps one of the reasons we try so hard to eliminate chaos. But what if we could re-contract our relationship with chaos, and the not knowing within that? What if we could create an avenue to experience peace in the midst of chaos, or even because of chaos? Is that even doable? What would be possible for how we are able to live, or what we are able to see, of what we allow ourselves to experience, discern, or decide?

And as Pablo said in session, what if chaos is a verb? What if chaos isn’t something to be alchemized, but instead a verb grounded in movement that we apply to catalyze the birth of all our desires?

Sitting with/within chaos causes parts of previously unknown aspects of the inner landscape to rise into being. The more I contemplate this, the more I sense that what is required of me is that I must allow myself to experience what it is to sit unflinching within the chaos…and trust that the biggest shift to cultivate this ability has to happen internally first.

In facing and embracing the truth of the chaos of not knowing, we can carry ourselves onwards and through into what is emerging.

Death and Chaos

It is said that one must fully turn towards death, and allow a full immersion in the contemplation and true understanding of it, in order to fully live. Personally, studying the bardo of death has been one of the most transformational journeys I’ve been on in recent years. Death and letting go is an essential part of vitality and life force, both as singular humans and as part of the greater ecology of planet earth. The cyclical nature of living systems remains to be one of the truest and surest experiences we can count on. Change is the only constant. So why then do we resist change and death of certainty with such vigor?

The collective fear of the void, the nothingness, the vast field of the unknown...causes people to reject the chaos, but really, it is an invitation into primordial possibility. A chance to actively engage with the great mystery. This void is the true nature of all that is, and we are just as much a part of that as we are part of the land of life and form. If you’re reading this, you have accomplished so much, and therefore you must have developed the skill of taking risks, but have you taken your risks with one foot still in certainty, just in case? What is it really like to jump with both feet into the void, and then to stand there/fall there/float there, and get comfortable being uncomfortable?

To me, at least in the context of this program, coming into right relationship with chaos involves coming into right relationship with death - death of your expectations, death of aspects of yourself that are holding you back, death of the need for certainty, death of old ways of being, death of patterns of governance, death of ego-fueled stories.

Certainty and Chaos

Certainty is the opposite of chaos, except through the frame that chaos is the only true certainty.
What is it that is so desirable about certainty?
What is it that is so (un)desirable about the great mystery?

Agreements are changing. Illusions we have clung to are disappearing.
Even though we are experiencing rapid change at unprecedented speeds, nature is here to remind us that the expiry of “life as we know it” is not only a normal part of any process of living systems, it is a vitally important part.
The snake that becomes blind for a time as it sheds its skin.
The caterpillar that becomes cellular soup in order to reform into a butterfly.
The buried seed that only sprouts after being covered in darkness and coming completely undone.
The dead fallen tree that gains a new life as it houses and fuels vital ecosystems within the forest.
I’m sure there are hundreds more examples like this.

What might you discover if you decided to use the unknown as a superpower? Is it possible that chaos = clarity, when you lean all the way in? What if a calibration point for how deeply or effectively you are opening to chaos is how much clarity you feel?

Chaos as Natural Order

The natural order of our world IS chaos, in the deepest form that we have scientifically discovered, on the quantum level inside each of our cells, in the depths of dark matter. Our entire world and everything we know, everything we can identify, everything we can relate to, the humans and trees and tables and butterflies and planets…it is all simply organized chaos. Once this realization landed for me, it made it much easier for me to open to chaos. Realizing that it is all unknown is what ultimately allows me to merge with the fear of the unknown, and allow more joy and possibility and trust and surrender.

However, this change has to happen internally first. And change comes most readily in the midst of chaos.

What would it mean for you if you considered that order and certainty are the illusion, and chaos is your true state?


 

Session Highlights

TRUST

DK: Trust is imperative to mutually explore something.

Jeanice: cultivating a total level of comfort in trusting that we will get where we need to go if we listen to each other, let go of perfection, let go of control, and relinquish states of leadership to see where the music takes you

Sumit: the dynamics of expectations. The world is a wish-giving tree. Nature does not have a concept of time. Sleep, breathing, and sexuality. Everything is chaotic, but trust that it will transform itself into serendipity.

Nicerine: The opportunity is to go beyond not controling the outcome or destination, and then trust that whatever outcome that happens is the right one. We are on the path as long as we are present in the moment.

RELEASE

Eco: playing with being less resistant to the unknnown and/or to outcome, calling out that it is sumbolic of a larger way of being in the world. How can this parallel in ways you want to exist in the world? Track the emotional map and find the emotional poles we are dancing between.

Ryan: trust the release. Have I been trusting the release of the definition or the value of chaos in my life? Soften my definition of what I think I might know. What is the difference between gold and lead? They are both heavy but have totally different values. As lead turns to gold, it doesn't realize it's dying. The alchemy of value.

Vanita: is release the starting point? how can we release perfection or need for perfection, trying to put things in a linear form...so that we can dive into the messy emotion and attachment to what's going to come out of it. The most beautiful sculpture I ever made was by embracing anything that was outside of archetype, when I had to find something true with no name or no form. Release the head, come to the heart, and here you'll find more space to embrace chaos.

Nicerine: release by realizing that what I can shape inside my mind, the shape I can give to my intention and my energy will always be less interesting than the shape that life is giving and offering to me to play with. Things are always more limited if I try to do something myself. Life is a dance and we co-weave.

RAGE / PASSION / PLEASURE

Connie: tapping in to healthy containers to feel and express rage, and then accessing pleasure as the best medicine for rage. Get in the body. Using the three tent poles of rage, pleasure, and joy.

Salome: the clear balance in feeling so much rage has been pleasure. When things are uncomfortable, I'm fine. It's full blown pleasure that feels scary. Excited to explore the spaces that I am uncomfortable with.

Ryan: the pleasure of chaos. allow the chaos to show me why I'm choosing this.

Aaron: using and channeling rage - rage is an appropriate response to a lot of stuff but channel it meaningfully in to action.

DK: the heat source of alchemy is here.

Marques: making pivots, existing in the liminal space, moving from brutality to elegance, it is in the hard transitions that lead into melodic harmony. Things sometimes only come into existence when we observe those things, and we can be a co-conspirator and co-generator of that space.

COURAGE

Maks: the concert promoter’s courage to weep led to him playing the broken piano with rage and it became a sold out record. Chaos begets creativity. Where are the "unplayable" pianos in your world?

Vanita: needing to have the courage to let go of the archetypes and dive into the chaos. Release the illusion of perfection so that I can go into something that is more real.

Marques: finding self-actualization through relationship with self, community, and planet. The universe has brought us here for a moment and for something meaningful, and if we can lean into that purpose it's just about showing up.

Vanita: when you go beyond the "I" and find self-actualization in community, you find a different kind of safety, which does not require the known.

Primavera: finding the resonance of the tribe I want to jam with - is the purpose the instrument I created and I play in order to find my type?

TENSION / CONSTRAINTS

Shelby: Constraint breeds creativity. The paradox of the fact that sometimes in order to create, you must destroy what's there.

Aaron: step outside of comfort and flow with what isn't perfect. We manifest chaos as a tool in order to overcome something.

Primavera: the terms of the jam. Jamming is about making a sound that will bring everyone outside of their comfort zone, but without breaking it. Introduce the discordant new that allows everyone to reinterpret everything and keep jamming. If you stay in the coherence, there's nothing interesting. This leads to a much more exciting and creative conversation where everyone is at the boundaries of the comfort zone and jamming to help our own perception and understanding of things.

Nicerine: meaning is not something that pre-exists. It is something that we build.

Pablo: chaos is a verb that has movement. this is the beginning of a beautiful innovation process where you don't know where you're going but all of the ingredients are here.

The invitation for you

is to become an alchemist.

Step into the possibility
that awaits you
beyond strategy,
beyond the mental monkey mind,
beyond forecasts,
and beyond what is “known.”

Understand that alchemy
happens in the process
and is not found
in the outcome.

Everything is always in a state of flux
and it is within that state of flux
that transformation and innovation take place.

 
 

Of course, alchemy is a mirror unto itself. Your quest to access your inner alchemist is the alchemical process required to then alchemize everything around you.

 
 
 

Turn the lead into gold.

Turn the poison into nectar.

Turn the impossibility into liberation.

 
 

About Christine Owenell
creator of Alchemy of Chaos

about pablo rodriguez
purveyor of moonshots

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